it did not happen
I tell myself.

I know this is not true
as I got up
I had breakfast
I took a bus
I had a talk
I took a lift
I walked
I walked
I changed
I walked
I read
I watched
I slept

but

I know this is true
as I watch
as I change
as I walk
as I sleep
and I walk
and I walk
and I read of
and I talk of
how I break
how I fast
how I get
uplifted
I take what
I have that
I take

I tell myself
it did not happen